Posted by ShelliR on February 23, 2001, at 8:31:49
In reply to Re: Part of Me Doesn't Want to Get Well, posted by pat123 on February 21, 2001, at 19:44:19
>Like K, I get no sympathy or pity for my depression, which is fine with me. Even my therapist is more cognitively oriented so I don't get much sympathy from her. I do not present as depressed to the outside world, and I live by myself. So that is definitely not the issue concerning continued depression. (Actually, I disagree that pity is a large part of any depression; people get tired of other's depression after a very short time).
Some years ago I did body therapy--which actually I'm going to start again. I feel my depression mainly in my chest, and when the therapist was working solely on my chest, I could feel the space she was creating there. I felt some emptiness inside-where she had been working. It was as if there was a hole where the tightness had been. I wonder if that is a general metaphor for me and my depression.
How I worked it out in body therapy is I filled my chest with growing flowers. And I think that if the depression were not there at all, (i.e. suddenly missing), I'd have a strange hole in my life. Depression does fill my body, and less often my thoughts. I'd have to substitute the depression with something--maybe new images and new experiences in my life.
ShelliR (changed from shellie.)
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