Posted by Cass on October 13, 2000, at 0:52:05
In reply to Re: Friends and Differences, posted by shar on October 12, 2000, at 21:19:16
The problem is that when one of them brings up a topic, they immediately look at me, as if to say, "Okay, will she conform this time???" And that just makes things really tense. They are waiting for me to respond. If I don't, it is a strange and akward silence. If I do, they, of course, know that I have not conformed to their way of seeing. I don't have total control over the conversation. If I did, I would NEVER bring up those topics about which we disagree. I know they are never going to change. It just bothers me that they want to change me. Inevitably, after one of these uncomfortable topics comes up, they start criticizing me and putting me down for things that have nothing to do with the topic. They dole out petty insults. They are just showing their anger. In their minds, they are probably punishing me for not conforming to the majority. They may even feel that the harrasment is for my own good. Geez, I am really recognizing how lousy these frienships are. Like I said, I'm sort of afraid to be so alone although I know it's not the end of the world and might even give me more peace of mind.
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