Posted by wittgensteinz on May 8, 2011, at 3:20:30
In reply to feeling abandoned by therapist or is it just me?, posted by itsmeshorti on May 7, 2011, at 12:47:57
Hi,
I can see why you feel so sensitive given your recent disclosure of your feelings about her - your rejection radar is probably on over-time.From what you wrote, however, I didn't get the feeling she is planning to abandon you. I agree with Dinah regarding her response to your wish to have a lighter session. Heavy, intense sessions can bring up a lot and I think you were wise to want to take it a bit easier just before a break. In my experience it's important to dig cautiously when going through the 'bad stuff' - especially if you have been feeling suicidal (glad to hear the depression has lifted).
I think a perfect session needs a bit of both - some intense moments but also some light moments - laughter and sharing good things. Maybe she felt like you were avoiding something? I mean, even if you did 'just come because you wanted to see her' that is already material for a good session about attachment and perhaps unfulfilled need in the past. Anyway, what's so wrong with that? I found it interesting that you said that you'd 'stopped the transference' - do you mean you're trying to ignore it? I can't imagine it's possible to will those feelings away - suppress them maybe - but you should realise such feelings are not wrong or bad - they just are. Presumably she'll know that too.
Anyway, phoning her and hopefully putting your mind at ease or scheduling one last session before the trip seem like good ideas.
Hope you end up enjoying your trip btw.
Witti
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