I try to never do this, but....

Posted by 10derheart on December 19, 2010, at 21:52:28

...well, I guess I am about to ask for a hug from anyone who still knows me and feels okay with that. I realize I have not been here for months on end, but in my "defense" I had a good reason. Which I just became stable enough to post to this board about and was preparing to....until today.
I just can't elaborate more right now (too much pain for me yet) but this has to do with abrupt end of long-term therapy earlier this year (2/10), repair of that which took over 10 months and was SO successful (I thought), and then a stunning email once again from ex-therapist today seemingly cutting off all contact.
I am....just exhausted from the journey and trying to understand him.
Exhausted, too, from hiding things over the past 10 months when they were bad ('cause no one I know IRL gets intense T-relationships or misconstrues the love/attachment...) and not having the outlet here. I was afraid to post here. That I would make it worse. That I wouldn't be able to explain. That I might get attacked. That I would frighten those in long-term therapy. And more. So I went away emotionally from Babble.
I hope I have not burned bridges by disappearing. I thought it was best for me and other posters.
Now....I just don't know....but I wouldn't mind hugs....
MDD (presently in complete remission); ADD-Inattentive type; mild anxiety (not fomally dx'd)
Meds: Strattera 80 mg q day

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I try to never do this, but.... 10derheart 12/19/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart 10derheart 12/19/10
(((((10derheart))))) Solstice 12/19/10
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Re: I try to never do this, but.... Abby Cunningham 12/19/10
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Re: I try to never do this, but.... mystickangaroo 12/20/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart jane d 12/20/10
Re: (((((10derheart))))) » Solstice 10derheart 12/20/10
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Re: I try to never do this, but.... » Abby Cunningham 10derheart 12/20/10
Love you, too ((muffy)) my friend...TY (nm) » muffled 10derheart 12/20/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » mystickangaroo 10derheart 12/20/10
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Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart obsidian 12/20/10
((((10derHeart)))) » 10derheart PartlyCloudy 12/20/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart Daisym 12/21/10
Re: ((((10derheart)))) » gardenergirl 10derheart 12/21/10
thank you, sid, one hug=good; lots of hugs=wow! (nm) » obsidian 10derheart 12/21/10
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Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart jane d 12/21/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart twinleaf 12/21/10
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Re: I try to never do this, but.... 10derheart 12/23/10
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Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart mystickangaroo 12/24/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... +raquo; 10derheart sigismund 12/24/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart Dinah 12/24/10
((((((10derheart))))))))) floatingbridge 12/24/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart Daisym 12/27/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » Daisym 10derheart 12/27/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart TherapyGirl 12/27/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » 10derheart TherapyGirl 12/27/10
Re: I try to never do this, but.... » TherapyGirl 10derheart 12/29/10
Re: ((((((10derheart))))))))) » floatingbridge 10derheart 1/2/11
thank you for understanding...... (nm) » mystickangaroo 10derheart 1/2/11
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you are all helping... (long) 10derheart 1/5/11
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