Posted by Dinah on April 21, 2010, at 15:14:42
In reply to Re: Today he was more himself, posted by BabyToes on April 21, 2010, at 14:34:41
There were traumatic events. But they've long been leached of any emotional charge. I think I store memories differently than some. The images get filed away, the emotions are thrown into a big undifferentiated bin.
For that matter, I'm not sure if exposure therapy would work. Primetime TV puts a fair amount of exposure out there. I guess it would have to be prolonged exposure. Even then, I think I'd just seamlessly move into mild dissociation. That's what generally happens.
I think I'm just a bit annoyed that I agreed to do something I didn't want to do, and the blasted therapist didn't bother returning my call. Her voicemail said nothing about vacation. It reminded me how much it s*cks to look for a new therapist. I remember the reason I went to my therapist to begin with was that he was the only one who seemed genuinely interested in working with me. I hate to go through the entire process for what I'm sure will be nothing. I don't know if therapists down here are rotten, or I have had bad luck, or if I am just not that appealing a client.
I'll bring the list to my therapist, along with that article, and see if he knows anyone on it, or has any thoughts about how worthwhile it would be to proceed. I really wish he just knew someone he could send me to. But the person he knew didn't want to work with me last time, and I can't imagine why that would have changed. I think it was because I dissociated. Yet the dissociative scales test they did at the other one showed that I wasn't dissociative at all. Bwah hah hah.
Bah. It's an awful process.
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