Posted by Dinah on May 9, 2009, at 8:39:25
Even though sessions aren't nearly as upsetting as they used to be.
Last session we talked about the fact that for the first time ever, I was maybe thinking that Dinah was me. Maybe me with time to think, reflect and edit. Or me without social anxiety. But still me. He was so delighted he made me repeat it. Without all the qualifiers. Hard to do without qualifiers.
It really wasn't all that emotionally loaded.
We touched briefly on the fact that I'd never told him that I'd shopped for guns while we were evacuated for Katrina. I *know* I told him I was having suicidal thoughts, and probably considered that that covered it. He wanted to know if that was before or after he told me he could no longer be my therapist. I wasn't sure. Now that I think of it, it must have been after, but not a direct result. I just think I would have had less confidence in my ability to get through what was happening without my therapist.
But again, it wasn't all that emotionally charged. We both talked about the fact that a heck of a lot of people probably felt suicidal then.
I love my morning appointments, but maybe I ought to think about changing them to later in the day, since I'm often worthless for the day after therapy.
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