Posted by alexandra_k on April 23, 2009, at 18:43:31
In reply to Re: the ongoing saga » alexandra_k, posted by Dinah on April 22, 2009, at 18:32:25
Hey. Thanks. I wish I could bundle him up and take him with me, too. Wish I could have bundled him up and brought him with me here. But I guess it has been good for me to see that I'm working okay with my t here and so once again it isn't that there is something about me that makes me find that I can't connect with a t. I do have decent relationships with some therapists. It isn't that I need to work to change my expectations or to overcome my feeling of disconnection. It is a feeling that I can respect. Well... When I have options anyway.
I'm a little scared about how dependent my functioning might be on having him (or people like him) in my life. I'm a little scared that I won't find that with my next move. If I get in I think there will be around 30 or 50 people who are 'mature age' entry so I'm hoping that I will find a supportive social group within that, at least. Had a really good group of friends in psychology as an undergrad where we studied hard and had a lot of fun and were competitive with other people rather than amongst ourselves. Am hoping that I will find something similar there. With respect to therapy, well, who knows.
The region is different from where I was before. That is a good thing. There might well be more options there than there were for me when I was back in NZ last time. I'm hoping that will be the case at any rate. Or maybe just maybe... I won't need therapy after all. I don't know. Still... Only thing there for me where I was from in Australia once I've finished is a life working as a civil servant. I can't do that just to stay with my t. I just can't...
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