Posted by FPark on January 31, 2009, at 23:03:37
There is too much work, need to be best at all.
my birth mother sent pictures in the mail recently with 'remember' on the back, known for calling and hanging up after yelling, kicked me out of house during first year of college, beautiful family with dad and his girlfriend, younger sister (had to watch her grow up with all the love/attention i never got...but he worked too much). terrible little fights with significant other. feeling like, 'is this all there is to my life', no one to talk about, attempted to talk with significant other on this..no real conversation. pet fish are sick, also causes stress. feel like shutting down quite often, wish i could get away to a small island with no work, due dates, jobs (working a couple), feeling absolutely drained and like a disappointment not worthy of everything i've got. paying my way through college, for phone, car insurance, health bills etc. have been more or less independent since very very young and extremely, debilitatingly angry about it. no close friends around, family far away. advice? words of comfort?
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