Posted by JayMac on November 23, 2008, at 13:27:09
In reply to The L word with T?, posted by JayMac on November 22, 2008, at 12:31:16
It's ironic, but I think I'm MORE fearful of her RESPONSE than telling her. I know that she won't kick me out of the room or tell me I'm imagining things. I'm sure she will say something meaningful. I'm scared. I'm not even sure what I'm fearful of.
Not sure if this matters: I had a dream last night that this person (representing my mom or someone who's supposed to love me) kept reprimanding me for everything I did. Nothing I did was good enough. Maybe I don't feel good enough to even be having these feelings toward her? Or maybe I don't feel worthy of her love? Which is actually somewhat true. Or maybe I don't feel like my love should matter because it's not perfect. I don't know......
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