Posted by nebulae on August 17, 2008, at 21:59:57
I saw my therapist today. He said that i stepped over the line, that i feel entitled, that i have blocked empathy and that my transference is getting in the way of work, and that i am not at the point right now to do work on all these issues.
The plan now is to space out my sessions to once in two weeks and later--once a month ("diluting transference"). In the interim, i am supposed to look for another therapist (he knows i can't afford it, to which he said, "It is what it is."). And after that? He said, "Then we'll see." I left it at that, and did not push, because this answer at least gives me a tiny hope that he will not drop me.
Honestly, i did not understand a lot of what he was saying to me. When he brought up all those things, i just sat there, acknowledged and admitted to them, but felt he expected me to do something else. "I don't want you to do anything, but i don't think you are actually willing to work on these things." But these things have only come up after that phone message!!! So, let's work on them now!!! No, he thinks i got everything i could from therapy with him, and now i should look for someone else.
I don't get it.
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thread:846918
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