Posted by muffled on December 31, 2007, at 22:51:15
In reply to Re: To the world...this is crazy muffled*trigger?* » muffled, posted by DAisym on December 31, 2007, at 15:38:01
I was thinking.
OK eg.: there's a babbler who got hurt as a kid.
So I see this babbler, and get to know this babbler some. And this person seems a nice and kind person.
I do NOT say oh, its Babbler x...the abused one.
I say OH! Its babbler x, nice to see her!
I do not judge/label/identify this person as their pain. I am sad that they got hurt.
But I dunno if I saying this right, but when I see this babbler, they are fine to me. I in NO way see them as bad, or dirty, or anything bad. I see their kindness.
But when I try to look at my own stuff, I immediately get my back up and there's so much negative turmoil.
So why can't I just accept that there may be some negative history to this body, and not have such a hairy fit bout it?
Its not like its even me anyways. So why the prob? Why I get all tied in knots about myownself, when when its another person, I think nothing bad bout THEM.
I dunno if I saying this right. I'm not quite sure myself. But this has been bugging me.
I mean its bad and all. But of all the years I've lived, its but a small part. And there's been SO MUCH GOOD in my life. WHY do I get so damn STUCK on this event in my life? Why is it wrecking me? Why can't I just walk away? Why can't I just say, yup, so fars i know this kid was hurt, but I am adult, I am fine? Why is there still such a frightened child in me? Why don't she go away?
WHY WHY WHY???
So many questions.
M
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