Posted by star008 on December 31, 2007, at 8:38:23
In reply to To the world...this is crazy muffled*trigger?*, posted by muffled on December 30, 2007, at 23:00:43
d,,,mm.. Lost my whole post somewhere and I am starting all over for you MUFFLED!!! Ohhhh MUffled was up late when I was at work and I couldn't try to help her or make her laugh:0
Yeah, IRL kids being out lost of triggers. You look at them and know how helpless they are I had trouble with that too.. My kids grew so no triggers with them anymore. Your I kids get angry cuz they think you know..They aren't aware that you don't remember anythng about it.. YOu feel the feelings, the emotions, the fear and you want to deny where it is coming from sometimes. LIke you are just a big drama queen and are making things up for attention..and then you look and see that isn't quite it ccause there have been times when you switched and "normal" people can't do that.But with big wholes and nothing to go on but feelings it is confusing. Nothing concrete to base anything on
And if it was your body and things were done to you where is the anger?? You have tons of anger spilling out all the time. I found it was an older kid, an adolesent that had much of the angerand hated the little Ikids.. Seemed like she blamed them for feeling ashamed and yucky.I think when the anger comes out at the swamp child taz that it is probably an older Ikid..Cause Muffled, you could never hate a little kid that did nothing wrong..But at the same time you don't know how to really reach her.. So she screams and does the Taz thing like any out-of- control 4 year old would...
And from my point of view the thngs that comeinto my head about what must have happened are impossible too..But I got these kids feeling all these things and telling me something happened.. And sometimes i get a pic or something perverted and I know that little kids are not perverted, (like someone doing something to my ikid when she was little) and I find it very difficult to beleive cause it is so nasty..And who must have done it becomes even worse to try to beleive.
I don't remember either.. Big wholes..Don't know if i am making it all up, (why would I do that)..But the feelings that come with it can't be made up. I don't remember the whole growing up thing..I guess people remember all that sh@@@T?
And if the kids shut down cause something was too much for them to bear emotionally, physically. whatever, why are they feeling it now?? I thought they were shut down in their developemental stages.
Yeah, the more you learn, the more it hurts.. Ignorance ws almost bliss but we weren't happy in ignorance and we can't pretend we are happy. just won't work
ceremonially breaking your hand?? Well yes you will feel the pain and maybe you will cry but it won't touch wht the ikids need.. There will be no release of emotional pain with physical injury.. YOU can look at your fist and see that it is real.
How bout I smack my head with a sledge hammer??.. I could get a huge dent there and cry cuz it hurt so bad..Bust your fist, i bash my head.:). Your choice.. and I will to walkaround with a dented head forever.. come on MUFFLED!!! Save my head from the dents!!this will pass.. t will be around and you will make it through another week..Please don't hurt yourself... It is really counterproductive. All that will do is to get the kids more agitated and scared..And beside, does it really make sense to break your hand anyway???
I am here to hold you up..and poke you in the ribs too..
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