Posted by muffled on December 11, 2007, at 22:35:48
Last email she say she gonna bring drawing stuff.For kid to draw if she don't talk. So I freaking out cuz weird for me.
I take coat off and HIDE the drawing stuff. Ha.
So, so I did, I did consciously allow myself back to let someone else talk to T. I filtered at first, but then it was all the other one. But I think I was around. But I remember some bits but other stuff is there, well, the time doesn't quite make sense or maybe, well, well I dunno, but I wish I could remmeber better. I always send email after session to write what I remmeber, but I didn't remeber to well. And T said back that I wasn't an *ss but we had a straight up conversation only. Very straight up she wrote. Sh*t and what does that MEAN? So I worte back and say WTF that mean????? I don't think I said anything I never said before I don't think.
So I feel like a total freak of nature. And I bothered cuz I not sure what I said.
I will go to bed and try hard to remmember. Sometimes it does come back to me some. Sometimes it doesn't.
Its sorta like echoes or something. I can catch glimpses. I gonna goto bed and try and remember.
Other than babble, this lady is the ONLY person in the whole WORLD that knows I am what I am. She the only person in the whole WORLD, that I ever showed a diff part to and let it happen on purpose, and didn't try and stop it even though I knew what was happening.
Mebbe thats why she wanted to give me an arm punch-a croney gesture of affection. I let her. It was wimpy.
She sure a brave T OK. She said I wasn't a weirdo. I felt so bad after, but I OK now I guess.
I dunno what to think.
Just wanted to tell you guys is all.
I proly gonna babble less cuz I got so much to do. I not been getting stuff done.
T got me to promise to phone her B4 I drink. Man she slick. I keep promises, my word is good. WTF, I DON'T wanna phone her and say such a thing. So I stuck. MANOMAN that T is slick.....
This is gonna be so friggin hard to do.
M
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