Posted by llurpsienoodle on December 3, 2007, at 17:29:44
i can't believe I talked to maleT (quieT) about what happened to me as a kid. i never told anyone about it. I promised i wouldn't but i did.
I am simultaneously exhausted and extremely anxious. i'm having racing thoughts and my flight-fight response is set to a hair trigger.
I can't DO anything because I can't concentrate.
I don't wanna communicate
I don't wanna knit
I don't wanna watch tv
maybe? I can manage to listen to some music
I can't read.There are a host of things I CAN do, but they are outlawed by the Llurpsie anti-acting-out treaty of October, 2007.
Now I'm left with a bunch of immature coping mechanisms. I say immature because I haven't practiced them very much.
I go now. to bed to regenerate some brain cells. I know I killed a lot of them.
-Lllllllllnood.
I could use a safe cyber hug. got any?
poster:llurpsienoodle
thread:798549
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