Posted by B2chica on October 8, 2007, at 14:21:19
In reply to Re: How's it going B2?, posted by rskontos on October 8, 2007, at 12:53:04
im not even sure how to respond.
i'm embarrassed. i'm sorry to muffled and RK.
i wish i could delete posts.i'm suprised it's coming out so much in my writing these days.
i felt things building as i wrote and then it's like i see someone else typing but i feel these emotions and then its posted. i can't take it back.so i did what i do best....left...
this is very unsettling for me as i am usually able to maintain my writing. written has always been easier to control.
i'm worried that T thinking it's ok for this emotion/part/teen to come out is not such a good idea. does she even know what she's doing?
since i posted i've had to keep my headphones on and music blaring so that i can calm down. i'll probably have to take another xanax today if i don't chill.i'm really not that...stable...myself...whatever, well since last week.
it seems that im easily triggered lately. so im thinking i need to not read posts until after i see T tomorrow.
-though knowing me i'll probably lurk, i just can't stay away. dang it all.
but i'm just not sure i should read too much or post.thnx for the support. i wish i could be more supportive these days.
poster:B2chica
thread:787114
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