Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 15, 2007, at 8:06:57
T is going away all next week. I won't see him until 2 weeks from today. I wish I had a better track-record of holding myself together when T goes on vacation. I don't though.
I did pretty well in June when I had no real T/ in between T's. Then I held myself together. But subsequent meltdowns in july kind of negated all of that. it was as if I saved up all the negative feelings of having no constancy in my life and then collapsed.
are things more stable this time? Certainly. my meds are stable. Aside from acid stomach (swore I was getting a bleeding ulcer for a week or so) my health and emotional well-being is okay. not stellar, but acceptable. I just got a part time job that I applied for. my references were really good, the interviewer said. so, at least I'll have enough money to make a car payment every month.
I was thinking about using this therapy break to focus on my scholarly pursuits. Perhaps I should try to finish up a paper I'm working on.
It's funny. I'm only losing 4 sessions, which is less than 4 hours of my life, but it seems like a lot more.
will me and T still click when he comes back?
-Ll
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