Posted by Daisym on April 20, 2007, at 1:15:06
In reply to Another session with ex-T, posted by pegasus on April 19, 2007, at 22:15:43
Peg,
There is nothing wrong with wanting to know that someone you cared about and shared with so intimately, misses and cares about you too. I almost hear "how could you leave me?" when you write about the separation. It is so raw and it just happened to fast -- you weren't ready. So you are, I think, still trying to process it, make sense of it and all the feelings. I imagine it might feel like waking up suddenly when the alarm didn't go off. You have to shoot straight up and out of bed and hit the floor running. There is no time to reflect and get used to being awake. When you finally can slow down and catch your breath, it feels like everything is ascew - not quite right, even if it is.
I think you are doing very well with asking for what you need. You need to know he cares; you need to know he felt bad about your pain; and you need to know he wishes, like you wish, it could be done differently. Or not at all. And I think you need to know he misses you now too. But I also think that it can never really be enough, because you weren't done but your therapy ended. So there is an ache, even if it is old.
Good luck tomorrow. I hope you get what you need from this.
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