Posted by annierose on January 15, 2007, at 16:55:18
In reply to Re: After looking at my options, posted by Dinah on January 15, 2007, at 15:09:18
I'm sorry if I further hurt your feelings. The problem with the written word is that my tone of voice isn't conveyed. I am worried for you more than anything. Your post did sound angry and defeated. And I think there are probably more choices out there than the ones your proposed.
Sometimes my t will say to me when I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place, "Feeling miserable must feel familiar in a comfortable sort of way because you are not even looking for other options or paths." And I understand what she is saying, especially when I could take myself out of the situation and look at it as an outsider. It's not easy to do.
It reminds me of a post from Falls from long ago about her new (at the time) therapist challenging her on the comfortableness (if that's a word) of depression (I hope this isn't out of context).
I'm sorry you are hurting.
And if you decide to work full time, after school care isn't the end of the world. I have had to use it from time to time and my kids always had fun. When I went to enroll my son this year, (for days my daughter had swim practice) the school secretary offered up her high school son instead (he was looking for an after school job). That has worked out well.
AND - - - even when I work 40 hours a week (which isn't all the time) I am still able to see my therapist.
What I'm trying to say, it isn't ALL or NOTHING - although I hear that it feels that way to you. You could see your T's on Sundays as you currently do, for instance. His support has always been such a wonderful source of comfort for you.
I'm sorry. It's hard to be a working mom and do the balancing act. I always tell my friends with no kids - - I feel like the act in the circus with the man trying to keep the plates spinning on the stick.
It's hard.
I hope you find the right balance that's good for Dinah.
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