Posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on January 11, 2007, at 10:14:58
In reply to Re: I have nothing » Llurpsienoodle, posted by Poet on January 10, 2007, at 18:52:10
yeah. I did my part. But it's a process.
I see two options right now (maybe 3)
1) I put a little more pressure on her in a month or two to get counselling. Perhaps I am complicit in the family's secrets because I try to go with the flow and never insist on having my own needs met. Guilty of "allowing" my mom to ignore me.
2) I learn to ignore the awful sinking feeling that comes from hearing love in their voices and feeling like I've betrayed them. I live my life and they live theirs, and when our lives intersect, I continue with my act that all is well (knowing that they will continue with theirs).
3) We drift apart. I would *like* some emotional intimacy with my mom, but maybe that's unrealistic, and I need to let that go.
Anyways.
I'm trying to get back on my path.
-Ll
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