Posted by Scentedgarden on January 10, 2007, at 5:44:42
sorry to be so dramatic but my |T was horrible to me yesterday, and im unable to function or go to my uni class or stop crying ..i wrote her 3 emails ending the therapy but was wise enuf to send them to myself...and not to her...its killing me this pain...i hate her, i want to hate her, i want to leave her, but i dont think i could bear to hurt her. we are too close, and if i say anything she doesnt like she con vinetnly blames my illness...and if she says something i dont like she blames my personality probs for not acceptinh her or what she says...
anyway yesterday was awful, and today i wanted to say to her...
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dear therpist
i cant do this anymore
im nothing but a huge pointless pain in the *ss to everyone
goodbye
singed
your xpatientps thanx at least we tried, and for a minute there i thought id make it. plz forget me. im sorry if i hurt u professionally i never ment to
-------------------------------------------------i never sent it ...as i know its the stupidest thing to say/do
but my head is feeling tension inside its skull unlike any ive remembered in my life....i wonder if anyone else has a bad experience first day bacj?
or anything to offer here just as i am..?
scented garden -
poster:Scentedgarden
thread:720991
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