Posted by youngaddict on December 30, 2006, at 23:49:45
In reply to Re: transference? i think so.... » youngaddict, posted by muffled on December 30, 2006, at 23:42:07
thanks...
i am glad to know i am not alone. i told my one close friend that i had mapquested my therapists address and she was like, thats f-ed up. umm thanks. i know that. haha.
this is so hard fo rme to talk about but i like the annonymity of the internet...
i find myself wanting to hurt myself to get her attention but then i can't tell her that i have hurt myself--like cutting, etc... its like i want her to notice and be like, omg why r u doing that? and then when she doesn't i hurt myself even more. i finally told my shrink i cut myself who told my therapist and my therapist brought it up once and i said i didn't want to talk about it and then she never brought it up again. ugh. i am so starved for love. i can see that. but it doesn't change the way i see things. or feel things. i actout these ridiculous fantasies in my head involving her saving me somehow and telling her she cares foe me.
wtf?
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