Posted by Happyflower on December 25, 2006, at 10:45:53
In reply to Re: So when are you are dumping me? » Happyflower, posted by muffled on December 24, 2006, at 10:19:04
You are right Muffy, we do have a special relationship whether or not he will admit it. I just feel like there is so much he doesn't say to me, like he is holding back his feelings about me, and when I try to tell him mine, he gets really scared or something. There is something between us, we both know it, but it is like we arent' allowed to say it out loud because of his boundries, and because I am all too familier with the boundries. Some day it will have to come to a head, because I need to say how I really feel, and I want him to listen and know, even if I know it makes him uncomfortable.
I have no problem leaving therapy with him, and the professional relationship. But I feel our relationship is more than professional, and I want to continue that part with him and allow that to evolve. But what I want and what he will be able to do or even want to do might not agree.
You are right, it is SO hard. I am just sad when I think of it. A lot of people said that when I am ready to leave therapy, it won't be so hard, well I think in my case, leaving therapy will turn ugly if our relationship doesn't continue in some form. I just don't know what to do. Thanks muff, for writing.
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