Posted by Happyflower on December 23, 2006, at 12:55:57
My T asks this yesterday. Why am I dumping him when it feels like he is dumping me? I just didn't know what to say. Things felt sort of weird when he said that.
I wanted so much to touch him yesterday, I even came close to puting my hand on his stomach as I was leaving. I wanted to hug him so much.
He talked to much about stuff that didn't really matter to me, I enjoy talking to him but I needed something different.I told him I got into a fight with my DH a couple of weeks ago and I threw a basket of stuff (not at him). He acted really surprised and said "happyflower!" I said I knew it was wrong but it felt so good .
I don't know we talked about a lot of stuff but nothing seemed to fit together. A lot of stuff was covered, but I feel like it was all on the surface stuff, same sh*t over and over. I just feel like he thinks I am doing well, and I am in some areas, but something is just missing in my life. I don't see him for 2 1/2 weeks and I just feel so sad. I don't know why. Maybe it has something to do with last session when he told me whenever he hears or sees a trumpet player he thinks of me. He said he didn't know why. I told him then he must think of me too much. Maybe he knows I am "on" to him, and he is pulling back. I don't know it just felt different, not bad, but something was missing yesterday. I am just confused, don't know why I am writing this.
poster:Happyflower
thread:715914
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