Posted by LlurpsieBlossom on December 5, 2006, at 23:26:42
In reply to Re: Long, PTSD Trigger post » ClearSkies, posted by zenhussy on December 5, 2006, at 12:28:27
Clearskies,
You gave me one of those hugs that "sticks". You know, the ones that are kind of remembered? Like my body were clay and you gave me a permanent hug. I don't know when the last time I had a hug like that was. You are a wonderful woman, and I'm really sorry that you had so much drama with the snow globe.I get pretty panicked on the way to airports too. It's the whole timing thing. It was always a lot of stress in my childhood to get my mom to be on time for ANYTHING. When we had to fly together was the worst. I think that I would be screaming at her, or inside my head for the last 3 hours before we found ourselves miraculously sitting on the plane.
I wish I could give you a hug that "sticks". I don't know if it's as good as Xanax. It's definitely better than Chardonnay, though.
You did an awesome job arranging the party, and I'm glad that you were able to relax enough to enjoy it. That's very natural (hostess-anxiety, that is).
I know that I get nervous whenever I have to arrange a meeting of a random group of internet acquaintances with a history of mental illness and a psychiatrist that I've never met.
I think you'd be crazy NOT to be nervous!!!!
You took a real risk, and you went outside your comfort zone. I'm glad that you did so, however, because I will remember you forever :) and your hug :)
If you ever feel like doing this again, please remember that we psycho-babblers are ADULTS. If we choose to come or not come to a get together, it's probably for reasons that are complicated, including (but not limited to) scheduling, geography, current craziness, anticipated craziness, disorganization, fear, no wheels, no money, etc. There is NO need whatsoever to feel guilty for putting us at risk of hypothermia or whatnot. You didn't create that cold front :) I like the cold, anyways. I've been taking long walks every night. The snow on the ground makes it feel bright in the dark.
(((((((((stickyhugsforClearSkies))))))))))so sorry you had a hard time. So happy you helped us get together.
-ll
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