Posted by llrrrpp on August 16, 2006, at 0:12:28
In reply to Re: Not so low :-) but with questions, posted by caraher on August 15, 2006, at 23:27:00
Elaine,
I'm so sorry you're hurting physically. BUT I'm glad that you're feeling a little better, depression-wise. Do you have a sense that something in particular is helping you get anti-depressed? Can you keep the momentum going and find a better place everyday? Like expoliation- a little bit at a time until you have a glow?I have a picture inside my head of Elaine. She's about my age, and she is a little more delicate that I am (in some ways) and much stronger than I am (in other ways). And I have NEVER judged you for your relationship with T*. The more you write on babble, the clearer my mental picture is of you. Fuzzy outlines resolve to gain a few more details, etc. But the basic concept has always been of someone who is kind, warm, intelligent and sensitive. I cannot judge you based on your body. Even if you were so broken as you claim, you would still have all the positive attributes above. I wish I could write something that would help you reconsider your mind's relationship to your body. I hope that there is someone in your life right now who can give you an accurate mirror, because the one you've been looking into is deceitful. I wish you could 'take to heart' all the things that are so immediately obvious to me, from your posts on babble. Your talents, and your compassion - the stuff you need to work on, and the inner source of self that you can derive strength from to make difficult choices.
I hope you can find a T to help you make the most of what you've got, because you've got a lot to offer the world.
-ll
*I judge your T, of course, because he's the one with the degree and the license to practice, etc.
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