Posted by ElaineM on August 5, 2006, at 12:10:36
In reply to therapy, posted by Estella on August 3, 2006, at 22:59:01
Estella: There's something about your post that sounds really sad. I know you said that you had a good session, but it still sounds sad underneath that. I don't know... feel free to tell me that I'm wrong. I can't really tell which came first for you: feeling that you may want to leave and that there was no focus, or your T talking about cutting back sessions. I think it's important to know which came first. I don't know about you, but when my time was coming to an end with LadyT, I had the urge to run from her first -- even though what I wanted more than anything was to be with her even more. Maybe that's just me. I think you should talk to her about what leaving means, or why you'd do it. If anything, perhaps she could help with a referral to someone outside the Womens Center.
Wow, focusing your studies in Philosophy, and having social phobia sounds really challenging. I don't think I'd be brave enough. I always thought of taking an occasional phil. course in school but chickened out every time. It's frustrating when opinions seem to depend more on delivery than content. I've found that intimidation is always a factor in lecture discussions, and the best way students can do that is to either get the professor to support their views, or to at least, sound like the prof. I quit going to discussions very early on in my degree. I think it's great that you continue to go, and not want to stoop to "pissing contests".
Plus, I think that "perforning", and having the mind and ideas to contribute to a discipline, are two different things entirely. Obviously, I don't know about your lectures, but there's also a fine line between valid, professional criticism, and sensational hostility -- respect.
Be who you are. It's okay if it takes time to learn how to be assertive in a way that does't contradict the kind of individual you feel you are. You sound like an introspective and sensitive person.
IT sounds like you have alot of good things to talk about with a T. I hope your next session is a good one.
safe hugs, Elaine
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