Posted by kerria on July 30, 2006, at 0:30:45
In reply to Re: In therapy tonight- i heard a part- hates me:( » kerria, posted by muffled on July 27, 2006, at 0:38:13
Thank you Jost, Daisym and Muffled so much for writing and for caring about me.
Everything is so much a mess. i'm so upset with T because of the way he does therapy. He continues to ask questions and questions. The answers have led parts out and led me to a place where i NEVER WANTED TO BE. i can't handle it at all. my life is a nightmare. i have no support irl- my h is negative and thinks DID is because of demons. i can't handle knowing what i heard parts answer.
i told T i never want to see him again. Now my life is so trashed and i have to live this nightmare without any way to do it.
We're left in a terrible place. i hate the kind of therapy where the T asks questions. It literally wrecked my ability to function. i feel tricked into parts saying things that i wasn't ready to hear . i don't feel safe:(
i hate myself. i hate my life. i wish i could forget everything in my brain because it make me unable to function anymore.
There's REAL hatred about REAL things. It's not just kid parts that are whatever.
Why did this T put me in this hell. He seemed like such a nice person. Therapy like that was terrible for me. i can't live like this- i can't function anymore and i hate who i am and so does my family.
i have nothing to get better for:(
tears, kerria
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