Posted by ClearSkies on January 20, 2006, at 21:17:30
In reply to It's not my imagination., posted by Racer on January 20, 2006, at 14:24:14
It sure sounds like your psychiatrist is trying to be your therapist. You're only a few appointments into this doctor, Racer. I'd say that you two aren't starting out on the right foot.
You could either - bail and find another p-doc (and yes, there are good ones. Mine listens to me very carefully and does not attempt to therapize me); or make another appointment with the p-doc and put the cards on the table, i.e. feeling like you are at crossed swords instead of having your p-doc on your side. What would it take from both of you to get a good working relationship between caregiver and client, within the structure of your roles as pdoc and person asking for help with medications.
Now, I have gone to my pdoc in the past and said - "the anxiety is excrutiating, isn't there anything else we can try?" to be told that maybe the medication should be a constant for a time but to increase the therapy to deal with the anxiety. I heard it like an Rx with advice dispensed instead of a prescription.
And sometimes, the pdoc gets it right. Sometimes she doesn't, and therapy isn't really at a point where I can address my current Top 10 Complaints, because we're working on the Crap Hidden Underneath The Stairs. In which case, the pdoc will conceed that maybe a tweak of medication is the best thing for now. Why, I believe we actally communicate and have trust going on.The feelings which you and I and a thousand other Babblers have stuffed into our heads and hearts for so many years beg to be released and expressed. To be liberated in a safe environment. Sometimes multiple appointments in a week help; sometimes it's giving me some homework to do that helps me get the next stage in our communication and relationship.
For myself the truth is that if I leave those feeling stuffed inside, then I become an active drinker, to turndown the thoughts; I become majorly depressed and can not get the whole making up the bed in the morning thing going at all. I mean really, why bother when you are going to be right back, in a couple of hours if you can help it? And the anxiety makes another appearance just as I'm whipping the grocert cart around the store, negotiating aisle territory heavily with the stock little boys and little girls who can't get themselves out of the way of the grabby shoppers wanting all their wares....
Never mind the experience of driving during the Snowbird season. It requres wearing blinders so you can't make eye contact with the other driver. If you can see their arms and hands on the wheel, but the head is nowhere to be found, what you got there is a car being driven by QueTips.
After this last experience my appointment was with my dentist, who is trying to remedy my bite so that my teeth don't slide around in my sleep but stay gratifyingly lined up while my teeth attempt to clench,
So the point is that I am better at identifying the things or people who trigger me and I am better at dealing with it: Cancel and apppointment, make another one, talk with your pdoc about it, and talk to your T about the relationship between the three of you.And please let those feelings come out here in a safe place with your good friends at Babble. We want the best care for you. We have many hugs or handshakes or just wan smiles, as needed.
We're here for you, Racer.ClearSkies
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