Posted by kerria on November 14, 2005, at 4:26:24
Hi Everyone.
Now i'm confused- i began therapy five-and-a-half years ago because i wasn't able to handle violence at home(things are better now) and tv, material at school, anywhere. i was having bad flashbacks and losing time. Basically i needed to cope with living.
After six months i was told i had DID, changed therapists to someone that treated that and not much has changed. i didn't get better really.
Every session i talk/cry about all the things that are wrong and aam not better for it. i have a T to call in emergencies and someone to talk about the dilemmas but nothing is changed except i'm aware of more of the problems and less surprised when they come up. i'm not any *better* i just realize the separations now.What do you have to do to be better, really changed, one with yourself and you don't do /say what you don't agree with anymore? And whose job is it? i can't make myself better. Isn't it T's job? i'm afraid that T gave up on helping me and therapy is just 'maintainence' or something but i'm not ever getting better:(
i want to ask T if he gave up but afraid to hear the answer.Thank you for ideas- please don't just say to get a new T
Thank you,
kerria
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