Posted by ghost on September 21, 2005, at 15:03:49
In reply to Re: S.ideation ***strong trigger*** » cubic_me, posted by B2chica on September 21, 2005, at 11:46:26
b2c,
i see no purpose to life. like, it doesnt matter if i live or die, and we all die in the end anyway, so what's the big deal if i do it sooner, rather than later? the end result is the same.
the T seems to think if i find some sort of "purpose" to life that everything will be okay. (i say BS.) the only thing really keeping me alive is my cat. which sounds stupid, but i guess if it works, what's it matter?
i'm not particularly *depressed* but i don't particularly like the idea of living, either. i fantasize vividly, too. i guess i imagine botching it up too because i never really imagine myself dying. just stopping once i start to do the deed because i pass out or something.
sorry i don't have anything positive to say. i guess i just wanted to tell you i can relate. i don't know why our brains are wired differently than everyone else's. but i know what it's like, anyway.
ghost
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