Posted by 10derHeart on September 21, 2005, at 12:24:21
In reply to Re: My T. is Too Important To Me » 10derHeart, posted by Damos on September 20, 2005, at 17:35:35
Thanks, Damos, for your always-steady support.
I try to rely on T.'s sense of what's okay, yet I often feel like he doesn't fully get it, or get me. In the sense, he doesn't appreciate the depth of things, the extent to which I *use* the relationship with him to try to fulfill all sorts of needs. Relating to my T. and my Babble friends are it in my life, really. I have these other woman friends, but it stays superficial, and I can't see that changing.
I mean, of course there's my daughter, but I protect her from TONS of stuff that I think is way too disturbing...
I don't know. Probably I'm overreacting, seeing myself too sharply through the "lens" of 'oh, how pathetic this woman (me) is at this point in life..." You know the drill...lots of shoulds, still.
Talking about it here, though confusing still, makes it less so.
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