Posted by B2chica on September 20, 2005, at 9:07:33
In reply to Re: stress **potential trigger* » B2chica, posted by Tamar on September 19, 2005, at 16:55:04
thanks fw and tamar.
yesterday had T appt. and we talked a little about this...he said he was going to give me some straight advice...Don't Go. call you 'mother'-doesn't matter what you say, just don't go. he said it's a good time to start practicing on my boundries and stand up for myself.anyway the good news is i did call and told her no. she was fine with it (over the phone), you just never know with her. either it's a HUGE deal or it's like it never even mattered. -funny how last week she was in tears about us not going and now over the phone she was fine. i'm afraid she'll let loose on my dad about this...i feel so bad for him.
bad news is last night i cut. at the time i didn't know why but this morning i feel incredibly guilty about not going now. like i'm failing my 'duty'. it hurts crazy bad. then i get madder cuz i think she's won either way, either i go or i cut either way, she's won....AGAIN.
;(
disappointed in self.
b2c.
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