Posted by alexandra_k on September 8, 2005, at 18:39:27
In reply to Re: jenstar - damos » alexandra_k, posted by muffled on September 8, 2005, at 18:22:56
> Whoah! You sound like me!?
:-)
>But I noticed something at my last session. My T. was trying to explain how SHE got thru a difficult situation herself very recently, as an example to me. It was interesting to watch her figure it out for herself. The process of the event, the emotions, her response to them etc. She was doing it on the fly and it was so cool cuz she WASN'T perfect at it. She had to work at it. So I FINALLY realized that even the pro's don't just know it all. They feel their way too. They often don't know whats going on right away either. That made me feel ALOT better, cuz I feel like such a fool for not knowing whats going on with my OWN self.I HOPE I will someday. So anyways, I'm trying to absorb these thoughts and not be so hard on myself and not so worried about all the crap that goes on in my dam* head. Sorry this is so LONG. Take care.
:-)
Thanks. It is hard... Because what I was worrying about... still stands. It still stands. There is just the point that I want to do the best I can anyways. That it is worth a shot anyways. And to have faith that things have a way of kind of sorting themselves out. And I'll get through and there isn't much point worrying about it when sometimes events just seem to work out okay...And that it really is important to appreciate what i do have. because i complain a fair bit. complain about injustices a fair bit. but there are people worse off than me. and they would have every right to complain about the injustices that give me food when they go without that give me an education when they go without that give me coffee and cigarettes etc etc.
and the best thing you can do... the best thing you can do in the face of all this...
is to appreciate what you have.
and to help others best you can.
to help other people.
i feel good in helping other people
i'm not such a waste of space after all
i helped my flatmate with an essay...
didn't really want to but felt like i should (that it was a nice thing to do that would be good for the both of us)
and we had a pleasant conversation
and i learned about the chinese / indian fighting over tibet
and helped her out with the structure
and its those little things
those little kindnesses
those little things we can do that other people find benefit from derive good feelings from
and even in the worst case when there isn't much good feeling for me...
i can still help other peopleand i'm sorry i've been such a cow lately...
and i need to wake up
and i need to remember this
it is just that sometimes...
i lose it a little :-(
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