Posted by Jazzed on May 29, 2005, at 9:56:39
In reply to Re: I think I may be ready to give up my plan, posted by Dinah on May 29, 2005, at 8:48:48
> > Yes, I understand. I remember when I started to recover from my depression and my daughter crawled into bed with me one morning and was being particularly cute, and I thought, “I love my little girl!” And I hadn’t even realised that I hadn’t been feeling it. But it was so wonderful to get that feeling back. And no, not feeling it doesn’t make you awful, but it’s nice to feel it, isn’t it?
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> I'm so happy that you had that experience! It is nice to feel it. When I complained to my therapist, I told him it's the compensation for the hard work of loving. And I wanted it, darnit!
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> I'm not too worrid that my therapist would ever terminate me, unless he was moving or closing his business. In fact, I'm positive he won't. Sometimes he seems so aware of how much he means to me that he'll say things that leave my more rational side thinking he's an arrogant puffed up idiot. But my more emotional side feels comforted. Then, of course, other times he seems to forget.
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> The sad thing is that I can never tell him of this absolutely amazing sign of progress, because I've never told him of the plan. Doing so now would just make him angry in retrospect. There is no point to that.
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> I'm glad I have Babble to share this with.I think it's SO important that you share this with him Dinah! You might have to preface it, and get reasssurance that he won't get angry with you, but it's something you need to work through with him. Are you afraid that if he knows he will try to gradually ease you out of therapy? I don't know, I just hope you never act on your plan. Have you told him you're considering hospitalization?
(((((((((Hugs)))))))))
I don't know you very well, but I always look forward to your posts. You are truly cared for, and I hope you will try to work this out!
Jazzed
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