Posted by Jazzed on May 29, 2005, at 9:50:28
In reply to Plans (trigger) » Dinah, posted by daisym on May 28, 2005, at 20:02:32
> >>>>But now I have felt that love for him, I can't bear to inflict on him what pain my plan would bring him, no matter how much pain I'm in myself.
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> <<<<I don't want to hi-jack your thread. I'm so glad you've had this epiphany and also that you feel your love for your son. I just need to tell you that your post help me clarify the calmness I've felt lately about "planning." I feel distant from my kids, like they don't really need me anymore. Like they could stand it and go on and be just fine. I didn't really realize I felt this way until I read your post. I'll have to think about what has changed and why I feel so removed.
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> But I'm still glad you're feeling what you're feeling. It sounds really nice.
After having a very bad reaction to some medication I was prescribed, I actually talked to my kids about this subject to see how they would feel, and I think it is not a good thing to abandon or reject your kids in this way. I'm not trying to judge you or come down on you here, but I was thinking of driving into the path of an oncoming truck, and the thing that stopped me was thinking about the driver, and my family. I know it was a reaction to the meds. The kids will not be okay. If you are feeling this way, you need more than ever to find a safety net, a person, or place where you can heal and get beyond this feeling, and get on the right meds. I really think it is part of a disorder and that it can be overcome. I hope neither you nor Dinah will act on this, and I hope that you will sincerely discuss the feeling or "plan" with your T.(((((hugs))))))
Jazzed
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