Posted by Susan47 on May 27, 2005, at 23:45:23
In reply to Re: Is anyone scared/terrified of their Ts? » JenStar, posted by pinkeye on May 23, 2005, at 20:11:28
Well that's what I've been trying to get from my ex-T for a year now. I think. Close to, anyway. He knows it and refuses me any more help and most of the world would agree that he's a wonderful person and I'm just an eff-up. But they'd be wrong, because his job, his life's mission in his work ethic, is to help people. But he has the right to refuse. He has the right to do what he wants. It's a big lesson for me to learn. I can't seem to get it. But I'm hoping I can move on, I'm hoping that I'm not going to ever repeat the pattern of self-abuse and anger towards myself. I'm hoping that somehow by osmosis I've learned this lesson and I won't mistrust a good man again. Some men are just insensitive and selfish, but so women are like that also, and just as I don't mistrust all women, I can no longer distrust all men. Huge huge lesson. I hope I'm learning it, because rationally thinking about it, and trying not to feel the extreme pain of rejection anymore, is really not getting me anywhere very fast. You know? See, I'm venting again, don't take me too seriously. This is your thread, anyway. It's a good one.
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