Posted by sunny10 on May 27, 2005, at 8:54:06
In reply to Re: confusion about therapy, posted by sleepygirl on May 27, 2005, at 0:16:51
I guess what I should be asking is if I should put therapy back up on the shelf and go somewhere else to "quiet my mind" first.
For instance, should I call the T, cancel my appt for Tuesday, and go start with practicing the writing, the mindfulness meditations, et cetera and learn how to SLEEP before I start up the therapy?
The reason I'm asking this is because I find myself so anxious because I can't do this "fisrt thing" (as she says), so the rest of the talk during the session is lost amid the feelings of inadequacy anyway.
Mainly because she is right when she says that the anxiety will just continue to build if my mind and body are too tired to fight it. She's right because my anxiety makes me feel as if I'll never be able to do anything right for the rest of my life; including therapy.
With my insurance, I only get a set number of appointments per year (at co-pay only). So it leads me to wonder if maybe I shouldn't be "wasting them" if I'm not getting anything out of them other than more frustration.
Does that sound logical or like isolating? Sometimes I get lost in the meanings- yes, now I am ruminating over therapy!!! Aaaack...
I don't trust myself anymore to make the right choices...
-sunny10
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