Posted by Shortelise on May 12, 2005, at 0:56:54
In reply to Re: upset » Shortelise, posted by Tamar on May 11, 2005, at 16:59:24
It's true, he should have called back when he said he would, which was tip number one that he's not good at his job. And not respectful.
I don't think he was trying to make me feel guilty. I could just hear the change in his voice, and I felt bad. No, it is not my responsibility. But I *wanted* to do this job, I liked the circumstances, other than the bit about working for him. I like everything else about it!
I didn't phone my psychiatrist. Not so far. I still have a deep sad feeling, though I am past feeling like crying. I don't know what he would do, honestly.
You're so right - this is bringing back the feelings I had six years ago. It was really awful back then, I pretty much cracked up, cried and cried and howled for days and days. The idea of going to work was torture. It took several years before I could think of going without wanting to vomit. I worked again after two years but had to take what's it called, like xanax, only different. Clonazepam.
I think I will telephone him tomorrow. He's not out of my life yet, so I might as well take advantage of his presence while I still have him. Why do I want to cry, though, at the very thought of talking with him? I'm such an idiot.
ShortE
PS Thanks, Tamar, very much
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