Posted by Daisym on April 7, 2005, at 10:34:05
In reply to suicidal ideation *trigger* » B2chica, posted by Shortelise on April 6, 2005, at 14:55:54
Mair said "whatever works" and brought up that her therapist is now part of her thinking.
I struggle with this too...and I told him I don't want to disappoint him or let him down. BUT, I was also really mad at him over the weekend (as mad as a depressed person gets) because he was really unfair -- using everything he could think of to get through to me. Like, "don't you think your kids will miss you? Don't they still need you? Do you trust (husband) to finish helping them grow into healthy young men?" He talked about grandchildren and future events and being part of that. He talked about my faith, and actually said, "Catholics believe it is a sin...how are you reconciling that?" Yes, I know, thank you! And he even said, "I will be devastated if you do this. I would miss you very much." He wasn't yelling at me (of course) and he was very calm and open, so it didn't shut me down at all.
But...isn't saying all that unfair? He even acknowledged as he was doing it that he was probably being "unfair" and asked me if he was making me feel guilty. He flat out stated that he refused to let me go. He did also ask if he was going about this the wrong way -- was he making it worse? He kept saying, "I'm really worried about you." But still...
I'm curious what your therapists have said and how they handle your worst moments.
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