Posted by Poet on April 5, 2005, at 20:39:21
In reply to suicidal ideation an addiction? *possible trigger*, posted by B2chica on April 5, 2005, at 12:35:53
Hi B2chica,
It might be for me. Lately my T has been trying to get me to look back at bad things and knowing what I know now, what I could have done to defend myself. She tries to get me to say *I would have told someone who could help me.*
What I say each and every time is *I would have killed myself.* Last session she said that is not an acceptable method of protection.
All my methods of protecting myself from things I don't want to face are negative and addicting. I drink too much, I binge and purge and I have a nonstop mental tape of negative thoughts. It's like I am addicted to telling myself over and over what a failure I am and always will be. Thoughts of suicide are on the tape. Over and over.
Poet
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