Posted by tryingtobewise on April 3, 2005, at 16:35:40
In reply to Would this bother you? Long but Please Read, posted by tryingtobewise on April 2, 2005, at 22:32:55
Dear Dinah, annierose, and Tamar ~
Thank you so much for taking the time to read and respond to my long post. I am greatful for your validation of my discomfort. I also agree, that yes, I will need to discuss with her how we will deal with the very real possibility of crossing paths. Yuck.
It actually gets worse...today I went into work because I didn't work on Friday. I had believed there were no suites open in our small building. I went the other way down the hall though to check, and sure enough there is one very vacant suite with a waiting area and 3 offices. Just watch...this is where she will be. I have a bad feeling about that.
So for those of you who asked...yes, New T is aware that I work for the Former T. It has been a complicated thing to sort out. I think I am well over the "shock" of going to work for my Former T, but on an ongoing basis I do still deal with my own issues around his ethically risky behavior. That part is an ongoing disappointment in him for me, plus I feel like such a whimp for sticking around this less than morally ideal situation.
New T and I talk about this often.
I stick around because...a) in spite of everything he is very likeable b) I have a totally over-developed sense of commitment c) I have kids at home and it is flexible and pays quite well and d) I guess I kind of like to be part of the therapy scene from the other side of the couch. (I am sooo nice to clients...I literally know how they feel when they call to schedule and show up:) )
Basically the whole thing is a mess. Maybe I just need to quit my job, quit therapy, quit meds and not deal with any of them anymore. But I really like New T.
Any more thoughts are welcome.
Thanks again,
Kim
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