Posted by antigua on March 5, 2005, at 9:53:52
In reply to Having it in writing, posted by Aphrodite on March 3, 2005, at 17:56:39
You sound just like me--maybe it's the similarity in our childhoods, or maybe we're just like souls. I used to pull that stuff on my T all the time--tell her that she was just doing her job, I meant nothing to her really, etc., that I was all alone in this. No matter how much she argued w/me, I didn't believe her. In the past weeks she has tried to tell me how she does feel about me and I won't let her. I just cringe at the thought of hearing her words, as if I will be able to distort anything she says to my way of thinking. I don't know. If I have to hear it out loud, than it just may be true.
I don't really know what happened, but this all changed in the last several weeks. I believe she cares about me and she told me she's not giving up. I think she modeled some great maternal behavior and we had some insights that I couldn't ignore. Maybe I'm overanalyzing, but getting back to trusting her was tremendously relieving.
If I had it in writing, I'd keep reading it until it fell apart and I wouldn't be able to deny it.
Good for you,
antigua
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