Posted by cubic_me on January 1, 2005, at 16:31:21
In reply to Facade, posted by Skittles on December 30, 2004, at 0:22:18
Skittles, I completely understand where you are coming from - I think many of us here feel we have to put on a facarde, at least some of the time. When I discussed it with my T she said that some defence mechanisms like this are ok, while some are unhealthy - she always told me that we have these defences for a reason, and we shouldn't have to break them unless we feel ready - this really made sense to me.
I too need 'alone time', which can be really difficult to get, especially this time of year. I usually make up some excuse to be alone for a little while, especially when I'm with my parents as they don't know anything about my depression etc.
Like you say, you feel that people around you would get fed up with the 'real' you, but I don't think that is totally true. I have told a trusted few about what has been going on with me, and it has brought us much much closer. I still put on the happy face sometimes, but not for so long that it really hurts or does me damage.
Take care of yourself first, ok. I hope the next few weeks are ok for you.
cubic
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