Posted by Aphrodite on December 10, 2004, at 13:32:36
In reply to Having hard time with feeling vulnerable, posted by Poet on December 9, 2004, at 21:54:48
I'm with you -- I'm always living that catch-22; in order to be well, you have to be vulnerable, and sometimes to show vulnerability can make you feel unwell.
In the rare moment, though, when I've let my guard down and let my T in and "selfishly" took all the comfort I could get, I connected and bonded with him in a way that I could take with me and indeed start to heal.
Your T really sounds wonderful and the invitation to let her in is very tempting, is it not? It's so, so hard to not use those old defenses even in the "room" that is supposed to be different. Your persistence in staying in there shows that you will eventually get there. I just know it because you deserve it!
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