Posted by gardenergirl on October 12, 2004, at 20:10:21
In reply to very nervous about tomorrow, posted by Pandabear on October 12, 2004, at 20:00:27
Pandabear,
It sounds like you are right to consider telling her. From your conflict within your post, I would guess that you have some significant feelings associated with this event that you aren't able to get out.I recently told my T about something I regret from a few years ago that I haven't even faced the consequences of. I just stick my head in the sand like an ostrich and pretend it's not there. I was so so scared to tell him. I also worried that he would in some way have to "tell on me" to someone. Even though I knew rationally that he wouldn't, the fear was there. Plus, I think I suppress or even repress this event so much in everyday life, by telling him, it was definitly making it real...something else I was scared of.
I was kicking myself before each session between the time I told him I "had a secret" and the time I actually told him. Telling him went okay. It wasn't as bad as I thought. He accepted it and was non-judgemental. I felt very irritable and mad at myself afterwards, still, for a couple of days, but then that began to go away, and I felt so much lighter. I think if you can tolerate contemplating telling, then telling would probably help.
Good luck. I know this is really hard.
gg
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