Posted by Daisym on October 7, 2004, at 21:42:07
In reply to Re: Suic. Feelings /attached to age states? (trigg » daisym, posted by Poet on October 7, 2004, at 20:21:05
Poet,
I know you are having a rough time of your own. I talked to my therapist a little while ago, he was "checking in" as always...and he said he thinks two things. That yes, these are partially her feelings. She was sooo hopeless and lost. But he also pointed out that the reason she is talking is because she has him. And that I haven't let go yet, I still think I shouldn't lean on him. So I get overwhelmed, feel alone and helpless. Especially at times like these, when work is too much and hubby is worse again. (I hate prednisone!) So he thinks she was "telling on me" first through a dream over the weekend and then today, when the conversation swung around to this. He didn't think it was dramatic at all, in fact he referred to having to pry it all out of me with a crowbar. So while there is so much pain and grief, about the csa, about my husband's health, etc., etc. she doesn't really want to die. As you said, she wants the pain to stop.
It is just so complicated and I'm so use to pretending that everything is OK, that it surprises me when i really look at how badly I'm feeling.
I'm not brave. I'm a big baby. I just happen to have a therapist who is OK with that.
You'll get there. It is hard. But stopping and starting is part of the process. Thanks for the support. I need all I can get.
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