Posted by alexandra_k on October 4, 2004, at 19:25:38
In reply to In agony over termination (very long!), posted by mandinka on October 4, 2004, at 18:41:51
Hi there. My heart goes out to you. I have been recently terminated and the reason cited was the t's personal health.
I guess that for me therapy is a kind of re-parenting also. I was unwanted as a kid and neglected because of it and so I have some pretty core beliefs about my being unacceptable and repulsive to others. Therapy is hard for me because I so want to believe that someone can care for me, but when I get terminated it compounds what happened when I was a kid. It takes me longer to trust next time. I start a new therapy relationship with claws out because I am still hurting so bad over past terminations. Maybe I test them by trying to drive them away because then if someone managed to get through that then they would have earned my trust. Aaargh, I am so confused and hurting over this myself.
I hope that you can have a better relationship with a new t. I know that it is hard to trust someone else when one has been hurt. Maybe people who need to be reparented are more likely to produce counter-transference issues. I am sorry, I don't know what else to say.
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