Posted by daisym on October 2, 2004, at 20:10:18
In reply to Re: Hurting » Daisym, posted by LittleGirlLost on October 2, 2004, at 19:04:34
There is something so profoundly primitive about mother issues. And yet, we so need to protect them. Is it because we think if we protect them they will FINALLY notice and love us for it? Or, is it because we don't want anyone else to see that we are so flawed that even our own mother didn't love us/protect us? (OK, my own issues here). And mother's who hurt us, well, how do you admit that??
I'm glad you've got your courage bulked up. Keep telling yourself that the anxiety of should I/shouldn't I? is worse than whatever you imagine her reaction will be. Your therapist will want to know everything that worries you and this sounds like a really big thing. As far as your reaction, maybe you'll feel during the session!
I found that being able to dump something out there and then having a session close by to process it, made it safer to let some of this out.
I'll be interested to hear how it goes. Another incentive for you to carry through on your resolve!
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