Posted by crushedout on May 4, 2004, at 23:26:24
In reply to Re: What happened today (very long), posted by Rigby on May 4, 2004, at 22:53:26
Rigby,Your post did hurt but only because I think you're right. I definitely think you're right about #2, and that's really cr*ppy of me to do that. And it's probably because she senses that that's true (I've pretty much admitted it, actually, so it didn't take any ESP on her part) that she's gotten so mad about it. Which makes sense.
I also think you're right that I'm wearing her down, and I also think I've been doing that intentionally on some level, and I've told her this, too. I guess I need to sh*t or get off the pot. Either I really want to make this work with her, or I give up, but stop trying to make her give up on me, which is what I've been doing. That's a pattern, and I've told her this. I was hoping by telling her that she would help me stop repeating it, but I guess she's as flawed as she says.
And you're also probably right that it's all coming from me being mad at her for not being my lover. @#$^&*. This is good stuff to realize but it hurts pretty badly.
I'm not going to cut anymore. Thanks, Rigby.
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