Posted by fallsfall on November 26, 2003, at 18:26:35
In reply to Memory, posted by Dinah on November 26, 2003, at 15:44:40
I think that Poet is right. I think that you are protecting yourself from pain. Even if you are very angry with your mother, you probably still love her - and NEED to love her. If you were sure that she invited you to kill yourself, you might have a harder time loving her. This way, being not sure, you can continue to love her like you NEED to.
If remembering these things becomes important to you (important to your ability to cope or survive), I'm sure the details will come back. Just like new memories come back when you need to know about them.
Is there a reason that you particularly want to know? If you are sure that you want to know, can you ask either of your parents if they know who it was?
Just keep in mind that you have been working hard to keep the identity of that person secret from yourself - there is probably a really good reason why you have been doing that.
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